I QUIT - Story of a failed child

Again I failed, now in sports. I don't know why everything is turning upside down for me. Despite  working so hard I failed in my exams. My parents would not understand it. They will now punish me and I am ready. I am ready to face the consequences. 

Earlier, when I didn't performed well in my half early exams, they locked me up in my room for 2 days. I was sitting there in darkness asking myself where I went wrong?

It's not that I don't love them. They are my life but will they ever understand me? 

How should I tell them I don't like studies or sports. I love painting. I want to be a painter. I hope they will understand me one day.

Frankly speaking, I don't like it when my fellow classmates feel happy even if they fail. I think there parents understand them. I feel jealous sometimes. 

Last time I got second rank in race, my mom burnt me with hot utensil in my hand. It pained a lot. I cried whole night, but I am a strong child. 

I promised her I will get first rank this time but I failed. 

Sometimes I feel, what the world would be for me if I was the way my parents wanted me to be. 

Last summer, when I showed them the painting I made and got first position for it, they threw it away. It hurted me a lot. 

But now, I don't have guts to go in front of them. What should I do? 

Should I run away somewhere? No, where will I get food from. Should I go home? No, they will beat me up. 

I guess, I should end my life. Yes, this is the easiest way of not making my parents more sad. I cannot see them sad always. Maybe, I am not a good boy. Maybe, I am bad and I don't deserve to live. 

I must get back home and drink something that would kill me. 

He took out a paper, wrote down- " MAA PAA I LOVE YOU"

and started running back home, when a bus hit him off and he fell on road. 

He died instantly. The god listened to his innocent wish and now he was no more. 

When his parents were informed about his accident and instant death. They came running to the hospital he was brought in . His cold soul less body was lying on the table. There was a note in his hand. It said " MAA PAA I LOVE YOU"

His mother fainted. She cursed herself for being so tough on his child, to the times she used to lock him up in his room so that he would realise his mistakes. All these things were of no use now. He was no more.